Bailey is at the age where pdas are sooo not cool. She waves goodbye to me with a fleeting look of "oh God,please Mom, Don't ask me to kiss you infrontofmyfriends..."
I get it .I GET it.I dooo. It just makes me miss her. Miss the time when she would run full force into me and wrap her arms around me for a hug before running off to play.
She can raid my closet for shoes now. She decided she prefers my rubbah boots to hers and has taken them over. I get it.She is growing up.I GET IT,DAMNIT.
We are at the edge of something. Bigger changes than we have seen so far. Babies grow into toddlers into preschoolers. I thought those chages were huge. The thing is-they still need you.
Now- not so much. She still needs me but not in the way that she used to.Now I must be more careful with what I say and more thoughtful with my answers.
I see her- who she is becoming. I wish I could be more like her. Cripes I hope I can live up to who she believes me to be.
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But in 10 years, she'll be hugging you again IN PUBLIC and loving you for being her mom!
ReplyDeleteB didn't hatch from an egg or fall from the sky. You made her. You trained her. You are helping her become the woman you already envy! You are who she believes you to be. She wouldn't be able to see that woman if she didn't exist. You just need to believe it as strongly as she does. She'll always need you, and eventually, she'll need those hugs of yours too.
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